Lost in this horrid world

I'm lost in this world.
Without any pourpose.
Have you ever just wanted to crawl under a rock and never come out?
Well, that's how my life's been.
Here's the things wrong with it:
Parents are getting divorced
School
Sisters
life it's self.
You know how you really wanna live but you don't at the same time?
That's how I am.
I have no pourpose; but I don't ever want to face death.
Ever.
Before I die I want there to be a life forever thingy.
But that could be bad.
It would over populate Earth.
There would be a no child rule or a one child rule. (I don't really care)
Point is I don't know what to do.
I'm scared of a lot of things too:
Natral Disastars
Very loud thunder and lighting
What's ahead in life
If I'll get kidnaped
Not have any friends
Being to laughign stalk of the school
About me in school:
I'm the second strongest girl in the school.
Kinda popular
Mistreated by other kids because I'm short (so they think I'm not strong. Then I give them a lesson and I get in trouble.)
Bad grades because There is too much pressure on my mind
Mood Swings
Two boys like me and I don't like them back
Nice teachers; but if you get them ticked, you're toast.
I spend most of my time in the counseler's room (She's really nice. I think of her as my older twin or part of my family.)
Well, I'l stop complaing.
Stay tuned for dreams and suprises.